Thursday, May 17, 2012

Body Betrayal


Monday April 9, 2012

This morning is Day 16 from my first chemo treatment and the doctors told me I’d lose my hair by Day 17. I have been hoping against all the odds, that I wouldn’t have to go through it, but this morning as I showered, my hair betrayed me and I realized that I will lose my hair. As I got ready for the day and was drying my hair and putting my make up on. Tears kept running down my face. It was so dumb that I was crying. I wasn’t even really sure why. It’s just hair. I know it will grow back when I get done with my treatments. It doesn’t hurt when it falls out, but I guess I’m mourning the loss of my hair and recognizing that this cancer experience is actually happening and that it is changing who I am, at least on the outside.

I took care of a lot of wedding plans today at home and ran a few errands. I felt good and productive. Tonight, Lincoln’s good friend texted him and asked if we’d like to borrow his gorgeous convertible corvette to go for a ride and let the wind blow through my hair while I could still enjoy that experience. I was so touched by that sweet gesture. What amazing, sensitive friends we are blessed with!

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